A thank you letter to all the things that never worked out.
All the boyfriends who told me I was “too much”
All the unrequited love
All the people who took advantage of my naivety and kindness
All the opportunities that I never took advantage of
All the friendships that fizzled out
All the betrayals of trust and confidence
All the times I never got the invitation, when everyone else did
All the times I felt unloved, unseen, and unheard
All the people who told me it was a stupid idea
All the people who made fun of the things that brought me joy
All the clothes I lost or lent out that were never returned
All the broken pencils or pens that ran out of ink
You taught me how to improvise. You taught me how to love myself when it appeared no one else would or could. You taught me to trust myself more. You taught me to keep some things at an arms distance, and to give my whole heart to other things. You taught me to value the things and people I have while I have them.
Without you I wouldn’t be who I am. I wouldn’t have learned the hard lessons I’ve learned and understood the truths of this world the way that I do now.
Without you, I wouldn’t have found me.